UPDATE

OK HERE GOES... I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN A VERY LONG TIME, TO SAY THE LEAST. WELL WHEN WE LOST THE HOUSE IN HOGANSVILLE, I DIDN'T HAVE ACCESS TO A COMPUTER.WE LIVED IN A MOTEL SINCE MAR 1st SO KINDA DIFFICULT YA KNOW!?! SO ANYWAY CHARLES WENT TO A NEW DR. THE LAST OF JULY. HE ORDERED ALOT OF TESTS...CHARLES HAD 600 ML FLUID AROUND HIS HEART HE WAS ADMITTED TO PIEDMONT ATLANTA ON THAT DAY TO DRAIN THE FLUID. THEN SATURDAY AM WE WERE TOLD HE HAD A MASSIVE MASS IN HIS LEFT LUNG. YEAP CANCER. TOO LATE IT HAD ALREADY SPREAD, HE HAD A TUMOUR THAT ACTUALLY TOTALLY SURROUNDED HIS HEART. WHEN THE DR DRAINED THE FLUID HE HAD TO CUT THRU CANCER TO GET TO HIS HEART. NEEDLESS TO SAY THAT PISSED THE CANCER OFF AND IT REALLY WENT WILD THEN. CHALES PASSED AWAY IN HIS SLEEP ON OCT 22. I LIVE AT MAMA'S AGAIN NOW NOT ONLY IS CHARLES GONE BUT MY ONE AND ONLY CHILD MY ANGEL HA MADE PLAN TO GET MARRIED THE 1st WEEK IN DEC. YES I AM FEELING VERY ALONE AND VERY FRAGILE. I HAVE TO SHUT UP NOW I AM CRYING TOO BAD TO SEE THIS KEYBOARD GOOD PLEAE PRAY FOR ME........................

DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS

TODAY IS DOCTOR APPOINTMENT DAY FOR CHARLES. WE BOTH HAVE TO SEE THE DR. BUT HIS APPOINTMENT IS FIRST. I WILL HAVE TO MAKE MINE LATER. JUST ROUTINE STUFF AT THE DIGESTIVE SPECIALIST, NOTHING MAJOR. JUST YUCKY TASTING MEDICINE TO CLEAN OUT THE BODY SO THAT THINGS ARE CLEARED OUT FOR THE LOOK SEE. I'LL WRITE MORE LATER AND POST HOW THINGS WENT

NEW YEAR

A NEW YEAR IS HERE ALREADY!! SEEMS LIKE THE OLDER WE GET THE FASTER TIME GOES BY......I MUST SAY I FEEL BETTER NOW AT THIS TIME IN MY LIFE THAN I DID 10 YEARS AGO! SOMETHING ABOUT TURNING 46 SEEMS TO HAVE BROUGHT BACK SOME OF THE YOUNGER LINDA TO THE SURFACE!!!! YEA FOR ME!!!!! I HAVE A NEW ATTITUDE AND OUTLOOK TO GO WITH THIS NEW ME TOO SO..... I AM DOING GREAT!! MY ONLY CHILD LINDSAY GOT SOME BAD NEWS TODAY........ HER "POPPA" IN MAINE HAS PASSED AWAY. SHE IS REALLY BROKEN UP ABOUT THIS. SHE DIDN'T GET TO KNOW HIM VERY WELL SINCE I DIVORCED THAT PART OF THE FAMILY WHEN SHE WAS 3. AND SHE ONLY GOT TO SEE HIM ONE TIME WHEN SHE WAS 16. THAT IS WHAT IS BOTHERING ME, SHE DIDN'T GET TO KNOW THE MAN AND NOW HE IS GONE...........I FEEL SADDENED OVER THIS TOO. HE WAS ALWAYS VERY NICE TO ME AND TO LINDSAY IN THE SHORT TIME WE WERE A PART OF THAT FAMILY. I GRIEVE WITH THEM OVER THIS LOSS. I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO LOSE YOUR DADDY. I KNOW HOW DIFFICULT IT IS. SO R.I.P. TOMMY MCNAMARA!! I HAVE SOME GOOD MEMORIES OF MAINE BECAUSE OF YOU!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

I HAVEN'T TAKEN THE TIME TO WRITE IN A WHILE SO....................HERE IS A FEW THINGS THAT ARE ON MY MIND TO SAY.........I PRAY THAT EVERYONE HAS A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS! MY FAMILY IS SPREAD OUT AND NOT EVERYONE WILL BE HOME AT MAMA'S THIS YEAR. MAKES IT KINDA SAD, BUT IN THE END WE KNOW THAT THEY WOULD BE HERE IF AT ALL POSSIBLE. AS FOR ME AND MY LITTLE BIT OF THE FAMILY WE WILL BE THERE (LINDSAY IS ALREADY THERE) AND READY FOR MAMA'S HOME COOKING!!! YOU JUST CAN'T FIND ANY FOOD ANY BETTER THAN MY MAMA'S!!! SHE CAN PUT A MEAL ON THE TABLE THAT WILL MAKE YA SLAP YA GRANNY BACK!! LOL!! I SAY THAT IN JEST CAUSE IF YOU KNEW MY GRANDMA YOU WOULDN'T EVEN THINK OF RAISING YOUR HAND LET ALONE SLAP!! MAN WE HAVE HAD SOME GOOD FOOD IN MY LIFE TIME AND NOW MY LITTLE LINDSAY IS THERE LEARNING HOW TO MAKE THE HOLIDAY MEALS JUST LIKE MEEMA DOES!!!!!!!!!!!! FAMILY TRADITIONS AND ALL THAT THAT HAS TO BE CARRIED ON FROM GENERATION TO GENERATION!! WE WASN'T ABLE TO GET MY DADDY'S SECRET INGREDIENT IN HIS SWEET POTATO PIE HE WASN'T ABOUT TO LET THAT CAT OUT OF THE BAG!! AND NOW WE DON'T GET TO HAVE A PIE THAT TASTES LIKE DADDY'S ANYMORE AND THAT HURTS LINDSAY. SHE TELLS MEEMA THAT HER PIE IS GOOD BUT I CAN SEE IT ON HER FACE THAT IT DOESN'T TASTE LIKE PAWPAW'S. SO TO ALL OF THE COOKS IN THE WORLD...........LET SOMEONE IN THE FAMILY IN ON THE SECRETS!!!!! WE ARE GONNA BE MISSING YOU TOO MUCH AND TO NOT BE ABLE TO TASTE YOUR SPECIAL DISH IS JUST TOO MUCH TO WATCH ON THE LITTLE ONES FACES............. MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAVE TOO MUCH TO SAY

I HAVE TOO MUCH TO SAY TO EVEN BEGIN TO WRITE ON THIS BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SO........................ I AM FINISHED FOR NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS

WELL AFTER HAVING THE DRYER "BREAKDOWN" ON THURSDAY OF LAST WEEK, THE REPAIR MAN CAME YESTERDAY. MR. CLEGG IS THE REPAIRMAN FOR AARON'S RENTALS. HE IS SUCH A NICE MAN. AND HE IS VERY THOROUGH. HE TOOK THE DRYER APART AND PUT IT BACK TOGETHER 3 TIMES BEFORE HE HAD IT FIXED. HE DID EXACTLY WHAT IT NEEDED AND I DIDN'T HAVE TO WAIT FOR A PART TO BE SHIPPED! SEEMS THAT THE DUCT THAT IS CONNECTED INSIDE THE MACHINE HAD COME APART AND WAS LETTING ALL OF THE HEAT AND LINT INSIDE NOT OUT THRU THE DUCT TO THE OUTSIDE OF THE HOUSE!! YEP I BROKE OUT THE OLE SHOPVAC AND HE CLEANED THAT OUT FOR ME. WHEN I SAW THAT I HAD A SHOCK TO KNOW THAT I HAD A "FIRE HAZARD" EVERY TIME I USED MY DRYER. YES I AM THANKFULL THAT THE DRYER BROKE DOWN! IF YOU REMEMBER, I HAD A HOUSE FIRE IN '90. MAMA HAD A HOUSE FIRE IN '90 AND WE BOTH LOST ALL OF OUR POSSESSIONS. NO ONE WAS HURT EXCEPT A CAT THAT MY MOTHER HAD AND HER BIG AQUARIUM. SHE REALLY GRIEVED OVER THAT MORE SO THAN THE POSSESSIONS. SO....FOR ME TO SEE THAT YES I MUST SAY I KNEW THAT OLE FIRE FEAR AGAIN. BUT MR. CLEGG DID EVERYTHING HE COULD DO TO GET THAT CLEANED UP AND NOW I AM USING THE DRYER WITHOUT FEAR OF ANY KIND. THANK YOU GOD FOR LETTING THE DRYER BREAKDOWN BEFORE ANYTHING BAD COULD HAPPEN. I AM VERY GRATEFULL.

HERE IS A NEW POST!!

OK HERE I AM, I AM KINDA SLOW WITH THE TYPING SO...... LOL!!! REALLY THOUGH I HAVEN'T POSTED A NEW BLOG IN SO LONG THAT I HAD TO BE REMINDED BY MY SISTER'S 1ST BORN TO DO SO ALREADY!!!!! THANKS FOR THE REMINDER!!! AND YES TO MY LOVING NEICE, THERE HAS BEEN STUFF HAPPENING IN MY LIFE!!! IT IS JUST THE SAME OLE KIND OF STUFF THAT OTHERS WOULD FIND BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT HERE GOES...... BE READY TO BE BORED................SINCE I LAST WROTE MY BELOVED NASCAR HAS WENT INTO THEIR "OFF" SEASON!! THAT IS A BUMMER FOR ME!! THAT MEANS NO MORE RACING TILL FEB '09 AND THAT SEEMS LIKE A LONG TIME TO ME!! AS FOR THE DRIVERS....PROBABLY NOT LONG ENOUGH.ON A MORE PERSONAL LEVEL, I HAVE A JOBE INTERVIEW SET FOR DEC. 1ST SO.... AND AS FOR ANYTHING ELSE WELL...... SAME OLE SAME OLE. NOT MUCH CHANGES. I SPEND A LOT OF TIME AT THE HOUSE, I TALK TO MY MOTHER EVRY DAY ON THE PHONE AND SEE HER EVERY FRIDAY WHEN I AM OUT PAYING BILLS. I TALK TO MY SISTER BRENDA ON THE PHONE EVERY COUPLE OF DAYS OR SO. AS FOR MY "LIL" SISTER SUSIE, I HAVEN'T TALKED TO HER FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS. I GUESS YOU COULD SAY I AM A "HOMEBODY" LOL!!!!! I HAVE BEEN ENJOYING THE VERY LAST SEASON OF ONE OF MY FAVORITE NIGHTIME SHOWS....... ER!!! I AM REALLY SAD THAT THIS IS THE LAST OF IT. I HAVE BEEN HERE WITH THEM SINCE THE BEGINNING. THE ONLY THING STILL ON THAT HAS BEEN ON LONGER, WOULD BE MY DAYTIME SOAP "DAYS OF OUR LIVES" AND DON'T EVEN LET ME THINK THEY ARE GONNA CANCELL THAT!!!!!!!!WHOA!!!!!!!TOO MUCH FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT. SEE MY MOTHER WATCHED THAT WHEN I WAS VERY SMALL, SHE TUNED IN FOR THE VERY FIRST ONE. AND I HAVE BEEN A FAN EVER SINCE!! EVEN WHEN I WAS IN SCHOOL, I WOULD MAKE SURE I TALKED TO THE BUS DRIVER TO FIND OUT WHAT HAPPENED!!THANKS GLORIA!!!ON MY HOLIDAYS THERE I WAS...WATCHING "DAYS" AND EVER SINCE......... WHEN I GREW UP AND HAD A VCR I HAD IT PROGRAMED TO TAPE MY SOAPS. BEFORE THE VCR I HAD GIRLFRIENDS THAT WATCHED (R.I.P. JULIE AND LEONDRA). WHILE I WAS ON THE ROAD IN THE BIG TRUCK WITH CHARLES, HE ALWAYS TIMED HIS NAP TIME AND LOCATION TO A PLACE WHERE I GOT GOOD NBC RECEPTION!!!!!!!!!!! THANKS CHARLES!!SINCE I AM HOME MOST OF THE TIME NO NEED TO TAPE I WATCH.... WHEN I GET A JOB I WILL BE TAPING THOUGH YOU CAN BET ON THAT!! OR I HAVE MAMA AND SHE IS A FAN AGAIN SINCE SHE HAS RETIRED.I GET TO WATCH "DAYS" WITH HER ON FRIDAYS!!! I LOVE MY "DAYS" THOSE PEOPLE ALMOST SEEM LIKE FAMILY!! I HAVE SPENT A HOUR A DAY ALMOST EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE WITH THEM. A LOT MORE TIME THAN I HAVE WITH SOME OF MY BLOOD RELATIVES.SO YOU CAN SEE MY ATTACHMENT. WELL WHAT DO YOU KNOW I GUESS I DID HAVE SOMETHING TO WRITE ABOUT AFTER ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!LOL !!!!!!!!!!SO I WILL POST THIS NOW TO LET THE ONES THAT HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR ME KNOW THAT I AM STILL HERE............JUST THE SAME OLE BORING ME AFTER ALL!!!!!!!!!! LOVE YA'LL BUNCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!