UPDATE

OK HERE GOES... I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN A VERY LONG TIME, TO SAY THE LEAST. WELL WHEN WE LOST THE HOUSE IN HOGANSVILLE, I DIDN'T HAVE ACCESS TO A COMPUTER.WE LIVED IN A MOTEL SINCE MAR 1st SO KINDA DIFFICULT YA KNOW!?! SO ANYWAY CHARLES WENT TO A NEW DR. THE LAST OF JULY. HE ORDERED ALOT OF TESTS...CHARLES HAD 600 ML FLUID AROUND HIS HEART HE WAS ADMITTED TO PIEDMONT ATLANTA ON THAT DAY TO DRAIN THE FLUID. THEN SATURDAY AM WE WERE TOLD HE HAD A MASSIVE MASS IN HIS LEFT LUNG. YEAP CANCER. TOO LATE IT HAD ALREADY SPREAD, HE HAD A TUMOUR THAT ACTUALLY TOTALLY SURROUNDED HIS HEART. WHEN THE DR DRAINED THE FLUID HE HAD TO CUT THRU CANCER TO GET TO HIS HEART. NEEDLESS TO SAY THAT PISSED THE CANCER OFF AND IT REALLY WENT WILD THEN. CHALES PASSED AWAY IN HIS SLEEP ON OCT 22. I LIVE AT MAMA'S AGAIN NOW NOT ONLY IS CHARLES GONE BUT MY ONE AND ONLY CHILD MY ANGEL HA MADE PLAN TO GET MARRIED THE 1st WEEK IN DEC. YES I AM FEELING VERY ALONE AND VERY FRAGILE. I HAVE TO SHUT UP NOW I AM CRYING TOO BAD TO SEE THIS KEYBOARD GOOD PLEAE PRAY FOR ME........................

DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS

TODAY IS DOCTOR APPOINTMENT DAY FOR CHARLES. WE BOTH HAVE TO SEE THE DR. BUT HIS APPOINTMENT IS FIRST. I WILL HAVE TO MAKE MINE LATER. JUST ROUTINE STUFF AT THE DIGESTIVE SPECIALIST, NOTHING MAJOR. JUST YUCKY TASTING MEDICINE TO CLEAN OUT THE BODY SO THAT THINGS ARE CLEARED OUT FOR THE LOOK SEE. I'LL WRITE MORE LATER AND POST HOW THINGS WENT

NEW YEAR

A NEW YEAR IS HERE ALREADY!! SEEMS LIKE THE OLDER WE GET THE FASTER TIME GOES BY......I MUST SAY I FEEL BETTER NOW AT THIS TIME IN MY LIFE THAN I DID 10 YEARS AGO! SOMETHING ABOUT TURNING 46 SEEMS TO HAVE BROUGHT BACK SOME OF THE YOUNGER LINDA TO THE SURFACE!!!! YEA FOR ME!!!!! I HAVE A NEW ATTITUDE AND OUTLOOK TO GO WITH THIS NEW ME TOO SO..... I AM DOING GREAT!! MY ONLY CHILD LINDSAY GOT SOME BAD NEWS TODAY........ HER "POPPA" IN MAINE HAS PASSED AWAY. SHE IS REALLY BROKEN UP ABOUT THIS. SHE DIDN'T GET TO KNOW HIM VERY WELL SINCE I DIVORCED THAT PART OF THE FAMILY WHEN SHE WAS 3. AND SHE ONLY GOT TO SEE HIM ONE TIME WHEN SHE WAS 16. THAT IS WHAT IS BOTHERING ME, SHE DIDN'T GET TO KNOW THE MAN AND NOW HE IS GONE...........I FEEL SADDENED OVER THIS TOO. HE WAS ALWAYS VERY NICE TO ME AND TO LINDSAY IN THE SHORT TIME WE WERE A PART OF THAT FAMILY. I GRIEVE WITH THEM OVER THIS LOSS. I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO LOSE YOUR DADDY. I KNOW HOW DIFFICULT IT IS. SO R.I.P. TOMMY MCNAMARA!! I HAVE SOME GOOD MEMORIES OF MAINE BECAUSE OF YOU!!!